Lost In A Deployment

My blog is about Love, Peace, && harmony and i truly believe that.  being married to marine i experience first hand what war can do to the families that fight them. i also get see what it does to the men that fight them. even with the support of their families it can be dark and painful. my husband wrote this poem while on deployment in Afghanistan. His first to Afghanistan but second deployment total. here is just a glimpse of what life is like for a deployed US Marine. 

LOST IN A DEPLOYMENT

By. Cpl. Stephen W. Oldenburg

United States Marine Corps

Pain and sorrow,

Emptiness and loneliness,

Being lost and scared,

Tired and wore out,

Just some of the feelings of this job,

Nothing out here to fix the problem,

Living thousands of miles away from the answer,

Living in the heat and sand,

Protecting them from afar,

The only way to make it through,

Is the thought and memories of them,

Hearing their voices breaks the darkness,

But knowing everything I am missing,

Just brings on more pain, more darkness,

The pain I can not handle anymore,

But I got to be a man, a husband a father,

A MARINE,

The only thing I can do is wait,

Picture them waiting for me,

The fact that they are still standing by my side,

Makes me wonder why,

Why are they waiting for me, 

Why are they so dedicated to me,

Why do they stand by my side through hell,

How do they stay so strong,

I am a man,

But the thought of them doing all this,

Makes me break down,

It makes me cry,

Not from happiness but from fear,

Fear of me not knowing the answers,

Fear of me not knowing what I have to offer,

To make them stay,

Fear that one day they will be fed up,

Fear one day they will leave,

Once again the shard of darkness comes,

Hopefully one day the answers will come,

And the darkness will lift,

And I will be able to see the answers,

One day I will be complete,

That day is when I am with them again,

Not a thousand miles away,

But standing by their side,

Being there for them,

Giving my all,

Being who I need to be,

A HUSBAND ,FATHER, AND A MARINE!!